EAT•PRAY•LOVE

I'm not even gonna lie... today was a horrible day. Emotionaly that is. For some reason I felt completly lost. Wondering "Why I'm here?" "With who?" "Is it really worth it?". The answers: "I don't know...no one...who knows?!" 

Carlos woke up early so I turn off my alarm thinking that he was gonna wake me up whenever it was time to start getting ready to go to church.... yeah think again! He didn't because he wasn't gonna go! So there I am late, by myself at church that to tell u the true I only went because I invited someone the night before and it would been rude not to show up after that (and yes, In case u r wondering, as predicted the person didn't come). I came home and at 1:30 of he went to basketball practise with the team. So again there I was by myself sleeping, watching NCIS and getting really scared every time the dog bark at the door because he usually doesn't bark at all. Carlos call like at 6:30 and got mad at me because I said that they had "the longest practise ever" for what he answer "I can belive ur comment, I'm working". For some reason I thought that he was calling because he was on his way home, but far from that he was now gonna "watch film with the other coaches"! I mean I don't wanna be the crazy jealous wife but I mean... come on! Really? I never see u during the week and know u deside 2 spend ur sunday with "the team". Pa' pendeja otra but to be honest I don't even miss him no more. Seriously, I'm so used to be by myself and do things my way, without asking for anyones permition, without anyones help. 

Finally at 8:30p I decide to get ready because my friend was gonna come to pic me up to go to the movies, but guess what? Change of plans (AGAIN), she text me and cancel and didn't even pick up when I call her back! -_- So at this point I'm just frustrared, thinking how different my weekend would it be if I was home with my family @ "San Se' 2011"! A hugeeee festival/party in PR this weekend.

Well to finish my night I thuoght it would be a good idea to go and eat at a nice restaurant to cheer me up, but nooooooo here comes Mr.Grinch calling me again and start up a fight over who knows what! So I end up crying and ordering something at McDonalds drive thru! :'( 

On my way home (still crying) I stop at a Red Box and rented "EAT PRAY LOVE". Waaaaaoooo! Just waoooo! I love it! The story of my life on a DVD! As soon as the movie start I had to wrote down this lines beacause I felt so identify with them:
 
"I had actively participated in every moment of the creation of this life. So why don't I see myself in any of it? The only thing more impossible than staying... was leaving. I didn't wanna hurt anybody. I wanted to slip quietly out the back door and not stop running until I reached Greenland. Instead, I made a decision. I pray."

Couldn't have say it better myself! I really love this movie and hopefully like her I would find my peace. Peace Of mind, of heart, of body, of soul. But first I have to buy my ticket!...

"There's a wonderfull italian joke about a poor man who goes to church every day and prays before the statue of a great saint, begging: "Dear saint please please please let me win the lottery" Finally the exasperated statue comes to life and looks down at the begging man and says: "My son, please please please buy a ticket". So now I get the joke... And I have my ticket."

In good puertorrican we can resume this joke as "ayudate para que te ayude". In conclution... I realize I can change if I keep doing the same! 

Eating, Praying and Loving.... Leysi Lee